A piece I wrote as part of my homework for Laura Jane Williams‘ online course, ‘Don’t Be A Writer, Be A Storyteller’ – this week was all about developing characters. Enjoy! ‘See you later mate!’ Chris shouted from across the street. Mud stained and red faced, Joe raised a hand as a goodbye, and then turned to face his front door, fumbling in his backpack for his keys. He pushed into the hallway, scraping his…

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This wasn’t the first time we met, but the first I can remember. We sat in her pastel print kitchen, inhaling the chocolate fudge cake her mum sets down on the light wooden table. Sunlight bores through the windows, bouncing off the white surfaces and floral trinkets. Her home always felt so much more, well, homely than mine. To look at us, it’s our difference that are obvious. Her slight frame compared to my broad,…

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The further I get along this road, the more I realise that there is no destination. Everything is a journey. Even when you think you’ve gotten somewhere, to your goal…there’s always somewhere else to aim for. Or a long way to fall backwards. I’d thought that this time would be the one that would stick. But maybe that was my mistake, for thinking that once you start getting better, you just keep getting better. That…

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I have been following the world of blogging religiously for around 7 years now. It’s been a lifeline for me; a creative outlet for me to share my story in the darkest of times, an endless source of inspiration, and reading/following some of my favourite bloggers gives me immense joy as well as the drive to create content that is even half as incredible as theirs. If you’re looking for some new faces to follow,…

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Here it is folks, my first spoken word video – ‘Fat People Too’ is a poem expressing my feelings about being plus size, life on the bigger side and lack of representation of overweight people when it comes to eating disorders. This is just about my experience. I hope you like it. Here’s the poem written in full: I’m fat. There, I said it. Not that the world ever lets me forget it. Don’t think…

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…and no, it’s not because I want to get pregnant! Up until recently, taking the contraceptive pill felt like a non-negotiable thing for me. I’ve been taking it since university – that’s around 4 years of pumping hormones into myself on a daily basis and messing about with my natural cycle. But lately, I’ve seen more and more women on the internet coming forward to talk about their experiences on the pill and why they’re…

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I’ve been through a lot of phases with calorie counting. There’s been odd times of a few months since I was around 18 where I’ve stuck to it religiously, using apps like My Fitness Pal to track my food and exercise, all to stay within one magic number for the day that was going to make me thin and bring me happiness – I know that to be a bullshit idea now, but it was…

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Before we begin, I must make this clear – I am NOT a professional or expert in mental health, binge eating or eating disorders, and if you’re really struggling with these issues I implore you to talk to someone and go see a doctor. All I’m offering here is what I’ve learnt in my journey to accepting my body, respecting my body and developing a more positive and balanced relationship with food. Don’t restrict yourself…

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I’ve been here before – but never quite this bad. The bathroom is getting cloudier with the steam from the shower. My skin is wet and my long hair is clean but dripping, and my fingertips start to wrinkle with that feeling when you’ve been in the water that little bit too long. I’d been washing off the game of netball that night, but somehow the shower morphed into something else entirely. Alone in the flat,…

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American Honey is a beautiful, sun-drenched whirlwhind of a youthful road movie, directed by Andrea Arnold. It stars newcomer Sasha Lane – who Arnolds spotted in Florida on her spring break – as Star, a Texan girl with responsibility weighing on her shoulders who is lured into the lifestyle of travelling sales by Jake, played by Shia LaBeouf. There’s a tangible chemistry between Lane and LaBeouf from the outset, and we follow them through the…

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The Facebook invite came through before Christmas. It was from a good friend, a former work colleague who was planning a get together for us and some of her other pals to catch up and connect. I deliberated, as I always do. My initial instinct was to decline, as I always do. But I paused. I know that the time I spend alone, in the house, can be as detrimental to my mental health just…

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