Why I’m Coming Off The Contraceptive Pill

…and no, it’s not because I want to get pregnant! Up until recently, taking the contraceptive pill felt like a non-negotiable thing for me. I’ve been taking it since university – that’s around 4 years of pumping hormones into myself on a daily basis and messing about with my natural cycle. But lately, I’ve seen more and more women on the internet coming forward to talk about their experiences on the pill and why they’re…

How Effective is Calorie Counting For Recovering Binge Eaters?

I’ve been through a lot of phases with calorie counting. There’s been odd times of a few months since I was around 18 where I’ve stuck to it religiously, using apps like My Fitness Pal to track my food and exercise, all to stay within one magic number for the day that was going to make me thin and bring me happiness – I know that to be a bullshit idea now, but it was…

My Advice On How To Beat Binge Eating

Before we begin, I must make this clear – I am NOT a professional or expert in mental health, binge eating or eating disorders, and if you’re really struggling with these issues I implore you to talk to someone and go see a doctor. All I’m offering here is what I’ve learnt in my journey to accepting my body, respecting my body and developing a more positive and balanced relationship with food. Don’t restrict yourself…

Depression: My Rock Bottom

I’ve been here before – but never quite this bad. The bathroom is getting cloudier with the steam from the shower. My skin is wet and my long hair is clean but dripping, and my fingertips start to wrinkle with that feeling when you’ve been in the water that little bit too long. I’d been washing off the game of netball that night, but somehow the shower morphed into something else entirely. Alone in the flat,…

Not Going Out: How My Mental Health Affects My Social Life

The Facebook invite came through before Christmas. It was from a good friend, a former work colleague who was planning a get together for us and some of her other pals to catch up and connect. I deliberated, as I always do. My initial instinct was to decline, as I always do. But I paused. I know that the time I spend alone, in the house, can be as detrimental to my mental health just…

Poetry: ‘Press Refresh’

How do I press refresh? On my body, on my head Undo all my bad habits and behaviours and self hatred and just start again I wasn’t always like this I wasn’t always sad Wishing I could go back in time, I tell myself I wouldn’t do it like this I’d stop, before it got this bad But the truth is, and I know this – I have to earn it Have to earn and…

I Am More Than Food: My New Mantra

I am more than food. I am more than what’s left on my plate, or the wrappers hidden in my drawer, or the overwhelming urge to eat that consumes me at every turn. I am more than my calorie intake, or my blood sugar levels, or my waist measurement. I am more than a body, than a bloated belly, than legs spotted with cellulite and skin decorated with stretchmarks. I am more than a cup…

My Top Tips for Visiting Reykjavik – Iceland Travel Diary Part 3

Here it is, the third and final part of my Reykjavik Travel Diary! Now, we’ve already covered all the admin stuff, the sightseeing and (perhaps most importantly) the delicious food and drink. So, I thought it would be helpful to make the last post from my trip to Iceland more of a general advice piece, full of the stuff I learnt from visiting Reykjavik and my top tips for you to bear in mind if…

Reykjavik Travel Diary Part 2 – Eating & Drinking

Welcome to Part 2 of my Reykjavik Travel Diary series from my recent 3 day trip to Iceland! Today, it’s all about the good stuff – eating and drinking! I list the top places we ate at during our trip, hopefully helping you if you’re looking for Reykjavik restaurant recommendations too! Iceland has a burgeoning food scene – although their national dish is fermented shark, will give that a miss thanks – and so I was…

Reykjavik Travel Diary Part 1 – Flights, Hotels & Sightseeing

This was a holiday for me like no other. I’m not exactly one for lounging around on beaches, but it seems like with the exception of a cold but crisp November trip to NYC, my excursions have always been to destinations on the warm side, full of sunshine. When my friend suggested we head to Reykjavik because she’d found a good deal, I jumped at the chance. Heading to a land covered in snow and…

#AskTheQuestion Week 2 – Shedding Expectations

Week 2 of Laura Jane Williams’ #AskTheQuestion was a funny one for me, and kind of knocked me out of my flow with writing responses to the questions because I felt like I quite simply didn’t have an answer. Week 2’s question was ‘Who loves you, but doesn’t get to tell you who you are?’. I’ve struggled with this because for the most part, I’ve never had huge expectations or judgements pushed on me about…