2018: The Year of ‘Action’

Whilst I’ll probably be writing down some specific things I’d like to have ticked off by the end of the year, I want to take a bit of a different approach to 2018. I’ve been familiar with the idea of a ‘word of the year’ for a while, but this video from the goddess that is Lucy Sheridan (seriously, check her out on Instagram @lucysheridan) explains the idea really well. Rather than a list of…

Reflecting On 2017

2017 was a bit of a weird one, wasn’t it? It absolutely flew by for me, most likely because I spend most of it bouncing around in my own head instead of being more present. I wrote at the end of last year about having two resolutions only for 2017. The first was to pay off my debts, including my overdraft and loans to my parents. Whilst I haven’t completely achieved this yet (and as…

Thoughts on Self Care

As I look at the food wrappers and Dr Pepper cans littered around me, running my tongue over my slightly furry teeth and trying to remember the last time I got myself a drink, I come to a stark realisation – I am terrible at taking care of myself. These days, I’m trying really fucking hard to do better, to be better, to find happiness. It’s taking me a long time, but at least I’m…

Introducing ‘Free To Be Okay With Me’

Have you ever thought about what it would feel like to be okay with your body? Up until less than a year ago, this was a completely alien concept to me. I thought that my body was made for nothing but hatred, and punishment, and loathing and restriction and resentment. I thought that I didn’t deserve to feel okay with my body, because it was so far away from what it ‘should’ be. Because it…

27 Things I Want Every Woman To Know

You know in the Matrix, where Morpheus and Neo are sat on big chairs in that dingy green room with the peeling wallpaper? Morpheus puts out his hand, spreads his fingers and says “You take the blue pill, the story ends. You wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.” Well, lately I feel…

‘Eat Sweat Play’ And How Sport Has Changed My Life

I pull on my green bib. I’m GS today – Goal Shooter, that is – and do a mini fist pump inside. A year ago, when I started netball again, I wanted to shoot but my skills didn’t match my ambition. I was too out of practise, and often delegated to a different position. But now? I know where I’m best. Shouts of ‘Come on Greens!’ echo as we take the first centre pass. The…

Creative Writing: A Character Called Joe

A piece I wrote as part of my homework for Laura Jane Williams‘ online course, ‘Don’t Be A Writer, Be A Storyteller’ – this week was all about developing characters. Enjoy! ‘See you later mate!’ Chris shouted from across the street. Mud stained and red faced, Joe raised a hand as a goodbye, and then turned to face his front door, fumbling in his backpack for his keys. He pushed into the hallway, scraping his…

This Wasn’t The First Time We Met

This wasn’t the first time we met, but the first I can remember. We sat in her pastel print kitchen, inhaling the chocolate fudge cake her mum sets down on the light wooden table. Sunlight bores through the windows, bouncing off the white surfaces and floral trinkets. Her home always felt so much more, well, homely than mine. To look at us, it’s our difference that are obvious. Her slight frame compared to my broad,…

My Binge Eating Recovery: An Update

The further I get along this road, the more I realise that there is no destination. Everything is a journey. Even when you think you’ve gotten somewhere, to your goal…there’s always somewhere else to aim for. Or a long way to fall backwards. I’d thought that this time would be the one that would stick. But maybe that was my mistake, for thinking that once you start getting better, you just keep getting better. That…

My Favourite Badass Bloggers

I have been following the world of blogging religiously for around 7 years now. It’s been a lifeline for me; a creative outlet for me to share my story in the darkest of times, an endless source of inspiration, and reading/following some of my favourite bloggers gives me immense joy as well as the drive to create content that is even half as incredible as theirs. If you’re looking for some new faces to follow,…

‘Fat People Too’ – Spoken Word Poetry Video

Here it is folks, my first spoken word video – ‘Fat People Too’ is a poem expressing my feelings about being plus size, life on the bigger side and lack of representation of overweight people when it comes to eating disorders. This is just about my experience. I hope you like it. Here’s the poem written in full: I’m fat. There, I said it. Not that the world ever lets me forget it. Don’t think…