Here it is folks, my first spoken word video – ‘Fat People Too’ is a poem expressing my feelings about being plus size, life on the bigger side and lack of representation of overweight people when it comes to eating disorders.
This is just about my experience. I hope you like it.
Here’s the poem written in full:
There, I said it.
Not that the world ever lets me forget it.
Don’t think I didn’t see that sideways glance
When you’re big everyone notices if there’s food in your hand.
‘What have you been feeding her?’ said the family friend
How offensive, and damaging, and downright ignorant
My legs were taller
My shoulders broader
My breasts big enough to attract stares and nicknames
Those things weren’t my fault, it’s just how I’m made
Everyone loves to remark on a pair of big knockers
But the belly that comes with it – they’re not so keen
Calories should be consumed but not seen.
Double standards are rife
You’re damned if you don’t eat
You’re damned if you do
You’re damned if you’re unable to show some restraint
You’re damned if you purge, bring it back up again
You’re damned if you order just a salad at lunch, that’s no fun
But you’re damned if you’re unable to stop at just one
We love those who are thin
Raise them up, shine a light
We even love to hear the stories of their fight
Against eating disorders
Against starvation and restriction
But someone tipping the scales in the other direction
You’re not even trying
See no one really cares if you’re big
The story becomes less poetic
If the symptoms we see look more like rolls than bones
Someone fading away into frailty and dust
Is a more romantic ideal than someone who just
Gets bigger and bigger until they’re unable to move
The underlying issues they have to fight just to prove
Depression? Anxiety? Sexual assault?
We can give you a tablet for that
Good news! Then you won’t have to be fat!
Like that’s really what’s wrong.
I’m not taking away from those who restrict
I want them to get the support they so desperately need
But where’s the Netflix dramas about people like me?
People who consume calories like crack
People who were never taught how to handle feeling sad
Or anything at all
People who’ve been made all their life to feel small
Unattractive, invisible, not there at all
People who try to recover from trauma
By using what’s on their fork to make a flesh covered barrier
You want to know what’s really killing the NHS?
It’s our sheer lack of awareness around mental health
The problem with fat people is not really what they eat
It’s bias from society, from the media, from people they meet
From plus size brands, as if that term isn’t demeaning enough
Who think people my size want to only wear stuff
To hide ourselves, rather than take up space
Shrink inwards, stay down, keep quiet and shy
But who is anyone else to deny
Me from taking up all the space I like.
What inspired this poem?
Anger and rage
At diet mentality, thin privilege, fat shame
We’re breeding a generation obsessed with food
Dichotimised into bad or good
Dirty or clean
Real or fake
Maybe we should all just take
A step back
Before we judge how someone lives their life
Everyone’s got their shit
Fat people too.
Being fat doesn’t make them worth any less than you.